[Verse 1]
A heart like mine is a hard one to love
'cause I've gotten real damn good
At really fucking things all up
Now I'm fighting demons in the dark
I don't know where I should start
Oh Lord I'm spiraling again
[Chorus]
Oh and I
I just wanna make it
Through the night
Oh and I
I just wanna feel alive
When that sun comes up
Feel the warmth on my skin
I count every day these days as a win
As a win
[Verse 2]
Oh and I've been sinking down
Try to scream
But can't make a sound
Tell me is it all just in my head
And I've grown so numb to it all
Oh god here comes the fall
I just wanna get some rest
[Chorus]
Oh and I
I just wanna make it through the night
Oh and I
I just wanna feel alive
When that sun comes up
Feel the warmth on my skin
I count every day these days as a win
As a win
[Bridge]
Doctor what is my disease
I guess it's in the family tree
Won't you help me out of this hell
[Chorus 2]
Oh cause I
I just wanna make it through the night
Oh and I
I just wanna feel alive
When that sun comes up
Feel the warmth on my skin
I count every day I pray to God
I make it to the next day
I count every day these days as a win
As a win
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